Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Happiness Project

Last 31 August, I bought a book from the local NBS entitled The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin. Due to the usual crowded days and equally crowded nights, I have read only a few pages, 46 to be exact. From this number of pages, I read some startling things that set me into thinking whether it would be great to devote a year to pursue things that would make me happy - or, to bae precise, to be more happy since in most times, I am happy.

The blurb on the back cover says: "She found that money can buy happiness, when spent wisely; that novelty and challenge are powerful sources of happiness; that outer order contributes to inner calm; that the very smallest of changes can make the biggest differences."

This, plus the 70% reduction from the usual price, got me into buying the book.

After 40 pages, what can I say about the book? I think it's worth reading until the end. She writes in a very lucid and simple style. I was also drawn to the promise that I could learn some lessons to get me out of this rather awkward situation I have found myself in, something difficult to describe to my wife and other close relations, this feeling of being lost amidst all this frenzy around me.

During the past three months or so, I keep worrying about the pain on my left knee, but I have not taken the time and trouble to see a doctor. I would rather suffer than work out the less painful job of adjusting my schedule and see the doctor. I have resorted to taking painkillers to ease the pain, rather than to go to the doctor and get a proper diagnosis and, hopefully, a solution to what ails me.

This wavering attitude about going to the doctor is making me unhappy but I do not do anything about it. To be fair to myself, I have really been so busy with a lot of things. I have been to several provinces on a consultancy assignment and the frantic schedule to meet deadlines somehow distract my attention from the pain. This is crazy thought and I am not being reasonable or, if you please, logical about it all.

I must follow Ms. Rubin's example of writing down a plan for my own Happiness Project. Perhaps I should start listing what make me unhappy. Or, like her, I should have some resolutions as I plod through the routine of each day hoping to be happy with each resolution carried out.

It's quite a task clarifying what I really want to do in this Happiness Project.

Perhaps the first thing to do is to get a good night's sleep, good for the mandatory eight hours, and clear my brain of cobwebs that prevent me from seeing the true path to happiness.

It's 2.35 a.m., quite from 9.00 p.m., which is my sleeping time.

Now to bed and worry about the H Project later. Must resume reading the book one of these days and resolve to finish reading it.

Now I must force myself to sleep.